Lord I pray...

Lord there have been many things that I want and I prayed.

Lord you have answered all my prayers. I know Lord that you will and I am thankful Lord that you love me.

I know I am not the best and I don't deserve your love. I pray that I will be better and I pray that God you forgive me always.

Lord I feel time is running short and I really need your confirmation.

I know no matter what things will work out and as long I have you with me, I know I can go thru anything.

But Lord I ask you to show me, direct me and give me confirmation. I really do want the security.

Lord I ask that you show me the way and guide me.

My dad and Christ

God works in miraculous way.

I am in a Buddhist family. I am the only one who converted despite objections.

However, I can't enroll my family. I want them to butt out of my life so it is difficult now to try to get them back into my life. I only pray to God for open doors and hopefully through other people, my family will come to Christ.

My brother, I have strong faith that he will come to Christ. Infact, he already has through his wife but he has drifted off. I know one day he will come back again. It is a matter of time and I know God continuously works on him.

My father, He is a true testament of God's ways. My dad is not a believer of any faith. He will do no evil but he says he believes in himself. When I moved them to KL, I was worried whether he will get used to it. He is not a social guy and prefers to stay home.

But God is good. He placed a godly man in my dad's life. Uncle Leong owns a mechanic shop near our house. One day, my dad and I went to his shop. I chatted with him and realized he is a godly man. He even invited my dad to church. I encouraged my dad to be friends with Uncle Leong. Not thing much happened for a few months then one day I found out that Uncle Leong has been taking my dad out for food with some elderly guy friends. It was a perfect placement. My dad goes to church every Sunday with Uncle Leong now.

Uncle Leong is encouraging my dad to accept Christ and do the water baptism. This is my dad's decision and he has to decide. I thank God for his journey and I can only pray that he does.

As for my mom, she is a hard one to handle. I have tried to place a friend's mom in her life but till now no avail. There will be on opportunity. God will work and place the right people together. I can only pray for her and hopefully be of a good example.

Praise God for even the smallest things

Isn’t it wonderful when you wish for something and it comes true? Even the smallest thing, because it would feel like a miracle when your wish is fulfilled. It is like someone up above heard what you wanted and fulfilled it just for you.

I have been meaning to get a mug for my office morning coffee/milo. That is because the office paper cups are too small and flimsy. So I was thinking that I should bring a mug or buy a mug to bring to office. The next day I got into the office and almost like a miracle, there was a new mug sitting on the table. Wow! Amazing! It was given to me for being part of the training team the company. It may be a small gift but the miracle behind it is when you wish for something no matter how small, God hears and he knows and he fulfills, Praise the Lord.

Matthew 7 : 7,8
Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.
For every who asks, receives, he who seeks, finds, and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

What happens when your dreams become a nightmare?

WOW! It was such a great service last Sunday.

I wish I could describe every word that was said but when you meet a pastor who is a great speaker and what more speak the word of God, it is usually a profound message.

So the title of his message was what happens when your dreams become a nightmare?

Has it ever happened to any of you? I am sure it has.

But what do we do at those times?

The topic related Olympics Shooter Matthew Emmons and the story of Joseph in Genesis.

Wanna know how it all relates? Stay tuned. I will refine my thots and write more soon.

I guess sexual fantasies and masturbation is ok...

Thanks all for your comments. Actually I feel a lot better. I decided to google a bit for some answers especially on Christians and masturbation.

Actually I was surprised to find that masturbation is not a sin in the bible. But LUST is. And because masturbation is highly associated with lust, thus it can potentially be a sin. Basically it is difficult to isolate the two because it is usually due to lust that people masturbate.

Anyway, so I guess masturbation is alright. However, if too much and it becomes a sexual addiction or you are masturbation and thinking of someone eg lusting over him or her, then it is wrong.

So it is a very thin line.

I guess if you are married and you are thinking of your spouse. It is probably ok. But the same applies, if it becomes a sexual addiction or lust, then it is a sin. In any case, if you are married you are free to have sex, you should not be masturbating too much right??!! :)

Btw....some level of masturbation apparently is good for married couples...Read this.

Is masturbation wrong?

Ok I know that it is wrong.

But is it wrong if you are married and it is with your husband. You are married, you can have sex but is masturbation still wrong?

If you are apart......is phone sex wrong between husband and wife? Are sexual fantasies about your spouse also wrong? I am still torn between whether it is wrong or right. It somehow feels like it is not so right but then rationally, since it is your spouse, it should be technically right, isn't it?

I hope someone out there can provide some perspective, best with some actual verse from bible....

Healing Encounter - what I saw!

I have been to healing rallies before but usually I am sitting at the back and could not really experience what is really going on in the front.



This time....I was sitting in the front rows and got a clear picture of God's miracles.. It was almost seem unbelievable but it is definite God's power and God's presence.

This is Bishop Robert Kayanja. Picture below. Read his profile here.

He leads the biggest congregration in Uganda and have travelled the world to healing rallies. Anyway, he was in Malaysia and I was there to see his miracles. He has healed many, the blind, the crippled, the hearing impaired, the ones with ones diseases....etc.

But the first thing that striked me is that he repeated said throughout the service that it was not him, it is God who is doing the healing. He reminded the congregration that it is not him, he is not the healer, God is doing the healing.

He started by praying and even with that it was so powerful, many fell, many were touched and it was all happening infront of me. People were falling down one by one.

Infact one of the ushers who looked like he suddenly became demon possessed needed immediate healing and Bishop Robert prayed for him.

And then the miracles of healing started. He started to pray for healing of diseases. One lady who came up was stopped by him. OMG! I have heard of her. She has been suffering with back pain that keeps her bedridden sometimes for days, she walks with a stick and a support for her back. She has been prayed by my friend many a times and even though she accepted Jesus but she often falls back to her Indian gods and idols. Somehow God has chosen her, it was her time, Bishop Robert chose her from the crowd, told her that she must believe and that her family is will be lead to Christ by her too. He then asked her if she wants to believe in Jesus and if she believes, she said yes. She then started walking without her stick and even removed the brace on her back. Amazing! It was really amazing.

And then Bishop and the congregration continued to pray for healing, and people started going up as they got healed. It was amazing, a little boy who was blind in one eye could see again. A deaf old man - he was wearing hearing aid, went up and said he can hear now without his hearing aid and a girl in wheelchair - she looks like she is mentally challenged, she started walking with the help of others. She just said, she felt like walking!!

These were some of the miracle I saw with my own eyes! It was truly amazing.

What about me? I had a headache when I went for the rally, it was better during the service but it became worst when I went home. Sigh.

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Christians - Can we have sexual fantasies?

I know that we are not supposed to have sexual fantasies.

I know that applies to single people. I have been wondering, if one is married and is having fantasies about the husband or wife (spouse) , is that still considered a sin?

Can anyone give me some perspective on this question?

What is God trying to tell me?

I hope that I am listening to God.

I thot I heard him and I made the decision only to have the decision reversed almost as I communicated it.

I don't know if it is for the better but I must believe that it is.

I need some security for the future. I think that is most important. No matter what happens, what I need to take good care of is the relationship with my husband.

We are going to be apart again and we are going into this uncertainty again, uncertainty on where our future lies.

But what's most important is that we stay strong together even if we are apart.

And that is my prayer to God. Let me walk the path of righteousness and let us walk in HIS grace.