Tomorrow, I am flying home. It will be decision time again.
The decision is probably made. I just am afraid to admit and say it.
I am still looking for a back door. I am still awaiting confirmation.
Lord, I need your confirmation. I need your approval, your consent that my decision is right.
I need to know that I will be ok. That I am making the right decision.
I probably already know. But I am afraid to take the step.
I need you Lord to guide me each step of the way.
Lord I pray that this trip will be fruitful. I pray Lord for your grace upon each step that I take.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
I am weak but HE IS STRONG
These last few days have been ups and downs. I know God is preparing me for something. I don't know what it is but I know that I have to have faith.
HE seemed to have closed the door. I pray and pray and asked HIM to guide me, lead me, open the door for me. I felt sad, I felt defeated, I needed his assurance.
woOut of nowhere, HE sent to angels to assure me. People I hardly know, giving words of encouragement at times when I needed it. My spirits were lifted. I knew that God has a plan for me, I just need to have faith.
He opened the door. I was filled with hope and appreciation. I really wanted it. I prayed hard. I asked GOD to guide me, lead me and give me that opportunity. I really wanted it.
But HE closed the door. I was defeated yet again. What is your plan, My Lord? I know in my heart YOU has a plan and I know it will be a good plan.
It is just that I am weak now, I feel sad, I feel rejected, I feel defeated and I feel fear. Fear for the future, fear to take the step, fear for the change, fear for what God has in-store for me.
I am weak. But I know HE IS STRONG. I know that even now in my weakest moment, HE is with me and HE is guiding me. HE has a plan for me and it is a good plan.
I need to have faith in HIM.
HE seemed to have closed the door. I pray and pray and asked HIM to guide me, lead me, open the door for me. I felt sad, I felt defeated, I needed his assurance.
woOut of nowhere, HE sent to angels to assure me. People I hardly know, giving words of encouragement at times when I needed it. My spirits were lifted. I knew that God has a plan for me, I just need to have faith.
He opened the door. I was filled with hope and appreciation. I really wanted it. I prayed hard. I asked GOD to guide me, lead me and give me that opportunity. I really wanted it.
But HE closed the door. I was defeated yet again. What is your plan, My Lord? I know in my heart YOU has a plan and I know it will be a good plan.
It is just that I am weak now, I feel sad, I feel rejected, I feel defeated and I feel fear. Fear for the future, fear to take the step, fear for the change, fear for what God has in-store for me.
I am weak. But I know HE IS STRONG. I know that even now in my weakest moment, HE is with me and HE is guiding me. HE has a plan for me and it is a good plan.
I need to have faith in HIM.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
God has a plan for me
I just need to put my faith in HIM!
I have been worried these few days. I really needed him to help me, guide me and I know if it is his will, I will accept for I know his plan would be a good plan for me. Nevertheless I was worried and even as I drove out in the rain to get the kit, I was nervous and apprehensive.
I prayed to God before I went out, asking for his WILL to be done. I will follow him.
But God has a plan for me and to my relief, he agrees that I am not ready. I am assured. He has answered. Now I just need to focus on getting my job started.
God, I thank you for your grace and love for me. I thank you for the mighty plan you have for me. I believe everything you laid out for me would be good. Help me and guide me to see them clearly.
I have been worried these few days. I really needed him to help me, guide me and I know if it is his will, I will accept for I know his plan would be a good plan for me. Nevertheless I was worried and even as I drove out in the rain to get the kit, I was nervous and apprehensive.
I prayed to God before I went out, asking for his WILL to be done. I will follow him.
But God has a plan for me and to my relief, he agrees that I am not ready. I am assured. He has answered. Now I just need to focus on getting my job started.
God, I thank you for your grace and love for me. I thank you for the mighty plan you have for me. I believe everything you laid out for me would be good. Help me and guide me to see them clearly.
Monday, August 18, 2008
My Weak Walk
I have not been blogging on this blog since April. I guess that is how weak my walk with God has been these few months.
God is with me always, I guess I just have not served him. I sought after HIM when I am in need. I believe He is watching out for me always. I am thankful, give praise when I pray but mostly I am asking God for forgiveness. Forgiveness for all things I have done (but done wrongly) and forgiveness for things I have not done (but should be doing).
But God is Good, and God is ever ready to lift my spirits and guide me. He may not answer the question directly but he will answer in his own time. Meanwhile, I just have to be faithful.
I seldom read the bible but I do read whenever I can and hopefully I don't fall asleep. Morever, I often wonder, what it meants when the words jump out at you.
In a rare occasion yesterday, the words did jump out at me and I am assured. God has answered and it restores and strengthens me.
Acts 14:8-10
8 In Lystra there sat a man crippled in his feet, who was lame from birth and had never walked. 9 He listened to Paul as he was speaking. Paul looked directly at him, saw that he had faith to be healed 10 and called out, "Stand up on your feet!" At that, the man jumped up and began to walk.
What God told me through this scripture - A man who has been lame from birth and yet had enough faith that God healed him. And now me...who is able and have so much more, how can my faith be so low? I must have faith that God has prepared something good for me and I must have faith that I will receive and God will answer my prayers.
Thank you Lord. I am glad and I will have faith. Continue to guide me!
God is with me always, I guess I just have not served him. I sought after HIM when I am in need. I believe He is watching out for me always. I am thankful, give praise when I pray but mostly I am asking God for forgiveness. Forgiveness for all things I have done (but done wrongly) and forgiveness for things I have not done (but should be doing).
But God is Good, and God is ever ready to lift my spirits and guide me. He may not answer the question directly but he will answer in his own time. Meanwhile, I just have to be faithful.
I seldom read the bible but I do read whenever I can and hopefully I don't fall asleep. Morever, I often wonder, what it meants when the words jump out at you.
In a rare occasion yesterday, the words did jump out at me and I am assured. God has answered and it restores and strengthens me.
Acts 14:8-10
8 In Lystra there sat a man crippled in his feet, who was lame from birth and had never walked. 9 He listened to Paul as he was speaking. Paul looked directly at him, saw that he had faith to be healed 10 and called out, "Stand up on your feet!" At that, the man jumped up and began to walk.
What God told me through this scripture - A man who has been lame from birth and yet had enough faith that God healed him. And now me...who is able and have so much more, how can my faith be so low? I must have faith that God has prepared something good for me and I must have faith that I will receive and God will answer my prayers.
Thank you Lord. I am glad and I will have faith. Continue to guide me!
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